Y .Monday, February 21, 2005.
todae's a dammit boring dae. hmm. supposed to work 5-11.. in the end become 12-11. and so.. I spent another great dae at swen. hmm. ysd went out with tina and meiying.. to celebrate tina's bdae. actually nt sae celebrate, cos we din do anithing else except play pool and sing kboX.. pretty fun except tt the kBoX ppl veri toopid. hmm. shall nto elaborate on tt. Hmm.
I was pretty pissed off ysd. cos the whole dae. my phone kept ringing. thanks to SOMEONE. and i was realli =X. I dun noe if what i did was realli mean. but i said smt tt realli hurt sumone. but seems like till now he still din get my meaning, cos he juZ sms mi to tell mi tt he's sick and he wants to tok to mi. BLEHZ.. craZY guy. niwae.. for this.. i finally truly understand the meaning of ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY. haha..
Hmm. Den.. ysd at 7 plus.. tianhwee called.. sae Jackson in Hospital.. cos of dengue fever. and somehow, mi may and meiying juZ went down to TTSH to see him lo. he's in CDC of TTSH. and it's like some ulu ulu place.. the place is pretty scary. by the time we reached there.. it's like.. alreadi 9pm? 1 hr pass the visiting time. and we managed to plead withthe nurse to let mi go see him for a while and he was alreadi sleeping. so sad. hmm. he look so sick. hmm. as in.. ya lo.. sick. see le heart pain sia. hmm. as in.. the normal hyper and lame jay.. now.. sick. hmm. what e hell is this dengue fever. tina sae max got it too. and i din even hear a thing from him lo. haish. and my cousin and a relative got it 2 weeks ago as well. hmm. sad case. and so.. now's jackson's turn. hmm. and oh ya, on our wae back, we passed by a temple, and we went in to sae some prayers.. for jayZ.. and i said some prayers for my grandma too. hmm hope tt it will bless both jayZ and my grandma to get well soon.
todae work.. i was pretty alrite in the morning, cos have may and hweeteng accompany mi. summore i was doing station with may lah. it was pretty sucky cos i was on shift with mam jane. bloody ass. haish. she kept nagging tt we din do suggstive selling to sell the fruity mineral water. and she want us to sell 4 each.. hmm. mi and may realli did suggestive selling. may sold 6 and mi 5. hmm. not bad. at least it shut her up. and sumhow.. till later part of the afternoon.. my mood swing started again. and i juZ dun feel like toking at all. and sad to sae. i was cashier. hmm. i think they meant to make mi rest cos i was doing 12-11. but my mood was juZ super down, summore it's a all malay kind of shift. hmm. i was realli worried for jayZ. cos i called and sms him. but he din reply. i think over there cannt use hp bah. hmm. but seems like he got reply meiying leh. hmm. not fair sia. hmm. mama suraidah said i wasn't myself. maybe i was juZ worried for what lah. but.. jUZ no mood. hmm. Huda was veri sweet. she came and gave mi a hug. i think she noes tt i'm sad. and she realli hugged mi. touched touched. hmm. she's realli my darling sia. haha..
was pretty mad at mam jane jus now. i told her tt jayZ is in hospital n she onli ask like.. oh.. is he ok? and the next qns was.. can he come back and work on tues? it's like.. seriously stuuupppid. and i'm so pissed off. it's like.. he's her staff lo. and tt's the best she can sae? all she cares abt is whether he can come for work. bitch. hmm. at least when i told patrick sir.. he still got concern abt him lo. he still tell mi tt if by fri jayZ still in hospital, he'll go and see him. hmm. tt's call concern. not like some bitch hu ACT like they care. hmm. I realli can't stand working with her sia. help! i'm realli getting from bad to worse. hmm.i gues it's nt juZ mi hu feels tt wae. was chatting juZ now.. (1am plus to 2am) with tianhwee. and sumhow realiZed tt he hates her too. haha.. i nv did feel this wae b4. may said tt it's nt mam jane hu has changed. I'm the one hu has changed. it's like.. from the start, i've heard all this abt mam jane b4 from ppl. but i nv realli noticed. cos sumhow, she treat mi not bad lah. but nowdaes when i'm better with the white shirts hor, realli can see tt mam jane realli nt as nice as i thot she is. she is nice..on the surface, but u'll nv noe what's she doingbehind ur back. hmm. ya, i've changed. a lot i guess. maybe cos i've worked here for too long, it's like i'm being familiar with everything here. and it's my own fault too. i could nv expect ppl to do things the wae i want them to. it's like.. the speed and everything. the dishwasher commented tt i clear stuff veri fast. sumhow i feel like telling her, it's nt tt i'm fast, it's tt the rest are slow. the new staff standard. slow. what i am doing now, is what i was trained to be. hmm.my mum saes tt sumtimes i have to watch out for my tone, cos it might sound proud. i'm not being proud. it's juZ tt i dun understand how come the standard of the staff can drop so much. to the extend tt the supervisors and managers did not want to scold them cos it's juZ a waste of time. hmm.
it's super early now.. in the morning, and i guess i should get some slp. hmm. oh ya, going to see jayZ tmr after my work. hmm. dun noe what to get him sia. hmm. ok, i'll think abt tt tmr morning. hmm.