Y .Thursday, June 30, 2005.
Din go sch todae. i'm so.. not good todae. 1stly heard abt some stuff tt i'm realli quite shocked abt ar. haish...
early in the morning, got awoke up by my siblings cos they gg sch. i'm so so so hardworking todae. i woke up at 8 plus, went to jog.. den came back. vacuum the floor.. wash my lab coat.. hang out the clothes and tidy up the house.. den fetch my bro, buy lunch, come back do inorganic report.. till nOW. stupid asshole. haha..
den online.. talked to a lot of ppl bah. tina included. been sucha long time since i last chat withher. haha.. cos i busy ar. haha.. den.. tok tok. sumhow tok abt kor and ying. and i'm pretty shocked to noe that they are together.. shocked in the sense that.. it's lk after so long leh. and.. one is my kor, one is my friend. and yet i have to hear it from tina.. I dun noe how to sae ar.. mayb cos i din ask ar.. but.. sumhow.. mi lately lk so lost from all my friends.. what max said b4 was right.. Poly takes away my time. or maybe cos nowdaes.. i hang out more with my class mates ar. whatever the reasons are.. i jus feel veri.. out. out of place. i dun noe where i belong. i dun feel veri well todae. not physicalli.. but mentalli. i feel lk crying. yet i dun noe y.. everyone is so busi with their own lives. lk i'm with mine. argh. i dun noe what i'm saying, cos i dun even realli noe what i'm thinking. Sumtimes i feel so used by ppl.. yet sometimes i feel so useless. Realli.. haish.jac is attached. and i found it out from tina. hmm. and leon's back.. and i found it out from jac. u see what i mean.. i'm lk.. so outdated. hmmm. i'm nt lk dying to noe.. but jus feel tt ppl think tt i dun want to noe. i noe it's my own fault. i'm angry at myself.
Haish. tests coming.. i'm freaking out. i have phobia. hmm. i admit now i'm doing better in sch. but my prob lies tt i can understand but dun noe how to ans qns. see my pt..? haish. feel lk banging into the wall.. argh!
this is crap. life is full of crap. Bleh!