Y .Friday, July 01, 2005.
I'm.. haish.. how to begin. i'm nt feeling good now. AGAIN. haish. i came online especialli to blog. cos i have too much things on my mind right now. i'm having a bad cough, a sore throat and a headache. and the thing is.. i'm having an empty heart.. or should i sae heavy heart.
Argh! hmm. mayb this is what some ppl call it as attention seeking.. but somehow right now.. i will realli appreciate any attention from my friends. concern. i kinda told some ppl tt i'm sick. but.. din get any SIncere replies. hmmm. i dun noe how to sae this.. but i can feel that.. humans are so.. EMPTY. they speak things that they dun mean. and do things that they want to without considering the feelings of others. i'm nt emphasizing on anithing or what. but jus in general. hmm. One gd example is lk.. isaiah. both mi and celine feels tt.. he dun realli look for us.. unless there is lk a report to hand in or what ar.. or got test coming, or got assignments to hand in .. den he will call and ask.. tt's lk.. realli.. =X.. i'm not sayin tt i'm nt willingly to help. If i can help, i'm more den willingly to. but it's lk.. can see the BIG contrast u see..hmm. and Adrian is another one. maybe becos of what celine said.. he seem to have lk drifted further. i dun noe it's jus mi being sensitive or what ar.. haha.. Class is fun. but it's veri.. superficial. lk..i do realli wished that there is someone lk may or hweeteng in my class.. den i dun have to lk.. be so.. NOT MYSELF. as in i can't realli speak my mind. of having fg in poly will be fun too.Hmm. oh ya.. after complaining so much.. hmm. finalli realized that someone do care.. Edward jus called. haha.. ask if i'm ok. heheX.. Edward is my supervisor at work. aka Doremon ar.. haha..hmm. cos jus now i called to tell sally that i'm nt feelin well.. and tmr.. have to put mi inside.. if not.. i can't go work ar. heheX.. den think sally told amy and amy told edward. hmm. suddenli feel cared. haha... hmm.. Edward kinda makes mi feel that i should go work tmr.. cos i'm important. haha.. this is lk crap lah.. but i'm humane too.. when u feel that u are appreciated, u tend to be more willingly to work for tt person..
now tokin to terence online. hmm. maybe he's nt s bad s i imagine him to be ar. haha... oh ya.. isaiah was taking pics of himself with my hp. and somehow has this pic that got that ger.. that clarrisis.. her name.. shiokteng i think.. they sae she look lk mi.. so her nick is clarrisis. and my mum said she looks lk mi! hmm. nth to sae ar.. since so mani ppl said.. she does realli look a bit lk mi ar.. a bit lah.. haha..=P
now toking to max.. online ar. hmm. lk.. a lot of ppl on my msn contact list. some i dun even noe. some.. i dun noe what to sae to em'. i was tokin to sonia for a while the other dae. kinda miss her ar. hmm. lk what i always sae.. tho we 2 nt lk close animore. but she's one of those hu .. noes mi=).. heheX..
I'm tired now. my head is bursting out anitime.. soon. haish. and my throat feels that it's gg to break into pieces. hmmm. oh ya.. did i mention. Initial D is nice!!! haha.. cos have 3 super shuai ge.. den the nice nice cars.. and i lk the racing itself. heheX.. sumore i watched it with my classmate. hmm. 9ppl went.. Celine,xueling,xiuping,sharon, isaiah,terence,andre,skye and mi lo.. hmm. i sat with celine and adrian. hmm. 2nd time sitting with adrian in threatre le. hmm. jus that.. this time around, i do understand where's my stand and yar.. i will not let myself sink tooo deep...
Guess my self esteem is lk a decreasing slope on a esteem-time graph. hmm. wahtever. sian. I'm still waiting for max to tell mi abt him and meiying. hmm. it's lk. bad news he will sae.. gd news he nv did sae de.. hmm. i'm nt complaining.. but yar.. hmm. jus a bit disappointed,,,
gtg n slp le la.. hmmm.