Y .Monday, September 26, 2005.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haish haish haish.. blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
help.. haish. what is the hell coming to. cmon.. my world sux.. what are all these ppl doing to my life. jus get lost. thanks so much for everyting. for nt caring. nt giving a damn to everyting. thanks so fucking damn much. chalet.dammit. hmmm. tmr movie. it's like.. wth.. hmmm. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............. haish haish..
i was too naive.. hmmm. like what i always sae.. dream NEVER come true. and it's realli true.. dream nv come true. what the hell is everyting. haish haish haish. thanks so much for lying and it's like as if u realli care. i dun give a damn animore. let this be the last time pls. i'm realli tired. of everyting. history repeated itself again. again. what's more. i'm tired of everyting. let mi drown in my own tears and die bah. wth.. haish. u gave mi hopes. u lied to mi.. saying that it was jus nth. if it's nth.. if it's nth.. den y make it seems like.. it's sumting. oh fuck. fine. he's ignoring mi now. mayb i'm bing too.. fan ren le. but so what.. i onli asked as a form of courtesy. did he feel sorry at all. even as a fren. i'm utterly.. totalli disappointed. even as a fren. to tell the truth. i noe i expected sumting more den frenZ. but i dun expect a lot. argh. what the hell am i saying. i do hope smt more will happen. but.. i wun be that disappointed with jus frenZ. but i am utterly disappointed in the wae he treat our frenship. feel so taken for granted. happi den msg mi.. smiley face and everyting. nt happi den ignore mi. wth! arghhh... i realli can't explain hw i'm feeling now. haish. i feel like i can blog forever. cos i dun noe what i'm typing either. i'm jus crying non stop. again. tap water again. haish. i was veri happi this afternoon. cos i went out with jackson and may. to sing. singing.. i almost felt like crying. hmm. everyting makes mi want to cry. everyting lo. argh! haish!!!!!!!!!!! den den den. i did control myself tho. it was alright. singing was fun. jackson was cute. been sucha long time since i last saw him. i miss him a lot i guess. hmmm. and yar. we took neoprints together. and i personnaly tink it's nice ar. hmmm. jackson jackson.. haish. if the guys all like jackson so nice. mayb i wun be blogging abt my sadness here le. there he is.. chatting happily with his vball ger. here i am.. crying my lungs out. i tink this is so.. ridiculous. there's this quote tt saes. dun cry over sumone hu dun love u. the one hu love u wun make it cry. i understand the meaning perfectly. but i still can't stop crying. mayb i'm destined to be like tt all my life. it sux. i dun noe what is happen to my life. hmmm...
max caled mi the other dae. saying abt hw his life is.. and abt dying. hmm. it's nt like i dun understand. i do understand. i noe tt.. it's veri tiring and torturing to go thru stuff that u urself hates. everyting. dying seems like sucha easy option. humans are al selfish. hu dun tink for themselves. hmmm. it's nt like i dun love him animore. it's like. i dun noe it's him animore. the max i used to love.. is gone.
can sumone jus take a gun and shoot mi.. haish.. i realli =S now ar.. haish haish haish. argh!