Y .Tuesday, March 14, 2006.
Sian.. super worn out now. but still wants to blog. haish. Need to clear my mind. As i'm typing this, my aunt is beside mi.. talking and talking. Non-stop. Can't conc. haish
Right now, Dun feel veri veri terrible. but jus now gd. work was alright. jus real tired. morning fountain. now sch hols. busy lor. hmm. Night cashier. and Ali was fountain. Sorta chatted. he ws saying smt like.. nowdaes. when u are working, and u suddenly take notice of the ppl ard u. U will feel so lonely. realli true lor. Nowdaes.. veri pathetic. This afternoon, i was telling sally, i realli miss patrick sir. and i seriously mean it.. things do chane,ppl come and go. Nothing can bring us back to the past. i miss the times where raymond is ard, may hweeteng meiying is still working. i miss sharing food with them, i miss the hugs from huda and siti. Right now, i even miss the endless bothers from huiHsia.. tings are so diff without her. I miss Jackson and his craps.. I miss sir paxson too. but where is everyone. everyone's so coped up with their own lives. Sometimes, we need to take a step back from our busi daily lives, stop. and tink abt the ppl ard u. I do think. but i wonder how mani ppl remembered mi.
Frankly speaking, it's been sucha long time since i last felt i had a fren. someone hu is there. mani times.. i felt so terrible inside mi. But When i realli need someone to tok to.. i found that.. i dun have anione ard mi. someone hu will understand and not judge mi. even if i have, ppl dun have time for mi. Been sucha long time since i last cried. mani times i tried to cry it out, but no tears could be secreted. it did cross my mind that.. even if i wanna commit suicide, i dun have any frenZ for mi to sae my last words to. I always sae.. everyone's a born actor or actress. hu isn't. i do admit, i'm one. regardless of what's inside the mind, when we go outside.. we all jus put on a mask.. and smile.