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Y .Sunday, May 21, 2006.

Warning.. this is a super long entry. Memories haunt. haish.

Wednesday
I skipped sch. cos.. I dun see the pt for mi to go sch for four hrs.. eyes too puffy le. cannt go out oso lar. Went to my small aunt hse early int he morning to help out. paste this and that. den. wait for everyone to reach, den my dad and his siblings went down to the funeral parlour.. hmmm. It was when my grandma's corspe reached the blk le. den the person sae. we muZ shout out her name.. like how we normally address her, ask her to come back. hmmm. everyone cried.
Daddy's friends came at night. Hmmm. Gabriel Uncle sent flowers.With greatest sympathy of ur demised mother. Den.. got blankets too. from his boss... All his childhood friends.. all those that grew up with my dad, those that my grandma noe too. all came down. den.. Eric chew( His boss) and eric tan uncle came too. and some friends here and there. but the ting is that. too mani came at one time. but.. onli have one daddy. cannt split up. lolx. Got prayers ar. hmmm.. from guang ming shan.. i tink so.. okay lar. cos.. i used to go fo guang yuan for prayers de mah. jus sad that they chanting in hokkien. dun understand. but the prayers was alright. hmmm. one glance in front, i smiled to myself. all my uncles hor.. all cannt tahan de lor. one fell aslp, the rest all sit till so restless. Went home veri late. nv study reactor system lor. haish... I told myself to wake up earlier on thurs morning to do.. hmm

Thurday
Slept till 8 plus lor. haish.No time to study reactor system liaoZ. wth. so freakingly unprepared for the test. haish. Went for breakfast with my parents. my siblings went to sch as usual. for one ting, the funeral wake was at amk. so near to sch. so daddy can send mi to sch everyday. den.. I thot i would be late for jap class. so msg adrian to ask how to sae sorrie i'm late in jap. " Okulete sumimasen." but.. i wasn't late. i was early. haha.. adrian veri dumb lo. the class start at 10, he thot at 8 got heat and mass transfer lab. brought his labcoat and reached sch at 8. dumb. jap was fun as usual. but.. getting more and more difficult le. haish. ate lunch with the guys. when we proceeded to the lec hall, the ppl from b1 and 3 were like.. starring at mi.. cos.. i'm the onli girl with the guys, andre,adrian,skye,kelvin and darren. hmmm. what to do, i'm the onli girl taking jap ma. haiyo. PIC lec first. listened a little. but din realli conc.. cos i worrying for my reactor sys de test ar. haish... after pic lec was the test. haish. dun noe what i was doing. wth. forgot everyting. basket. Den went back to the wake again. hmmm. more blankets came for my dady. a total of 4 blankets and 1 flower stand. hmmm.My aunties they all.. like no friends one lei. not even one. weird ppl ar. daddy's boss came again with eric tan uncle. so sweet. and so nice. oh ya, xiao hui auntie came with rong ping. my childhood friend in yishun. used to play from small lor. they came. he got his liscene alreadi!!! hmmm. found out from him that huifeng not studying animore le. haha. expected ar. bimbo. hmmm. fri got maths test. nv study again. haish...

Friday

MAths test. argh. tt dae do the qns that andre gave hor, all my ans dun telly with kelvin's one lei. so i asked andre to go sch earlier to teach mi. in the end, realiZe that it's nt i got it wrong lor. it's kelvin careless. lolx. kelvin veri.. proud de lei. adrian celine they all like to ask him qns de. i will always ask the girls first or adrian and andre first. until no one noes le, den i ask him. hmm. can sae i'm bad lar. but i realli cannt take tt haughty look on his face. the worse ting is that. when he dun noe he nv sae so, he jus crap some ting to u and insist tt tt's correct.. im not dumb one lor. so.. overall the maths test was alright. cos we cheated. mi andre and celine exchanged scripts to double check ans. haha.. Den was Heat and mass transfer lab. tink abt it also sian. group with my BEST FREN. wth. they sae siewling is my best fren lor... eeeee.. cos she everytime grp with mi. wth. but when we reached to lab right.. erm. she wasn't there. she din come for the lab. i feel happier tho. tho it's jus 3 person. but so much moer carefree without her. mi and sher took pics. haha.. ran ard. cos muZ wait for stable tempt.

Me and sher during heat and mass transfer lab.

I din do my pic log bk. and i dun care. no time to do lar. so tired summore. we had a 2 hr luch break. nth to do also. we ate and went up to the lab. sat outside and crap. we a gd class for crapping lor. had lotsa laughter. hmmm. den b1 ppl, eve, bixia justin they all came up. and said that we could check our test results for reactor system test.. i dying to check lor. but no one want to pei wo. in the end.. i waited till sher, fiza and siti came... i got 38 out of 50. percentage was 7.6/10. er xin lor. celine was highest. 9.8/10.. i am.. a little disappointed with the result. but.. can't expect to get 9/10 when i din study lor. hmmm. celine oso veri kelian. the night b4 she msg mi, cos she oso haven study. she onli study during marketing and pic lec. i tink cos she study the tings tt came out. gd for her. tink she sae she nv study oso no one will believe. but i noe tt .. she wun lie abt this de lar. she got study she will sae de. cos she herself hates hypocrite.

i'm sorry if the entry is so lengthy. but .. i can't help it. ...

PIC lab was.. funni and boring. funni cos of the few jokers lar. the ppl at the next labw as laughing too. boring cos. i had no idea wat the stupid machine is abt and what the hell the teacher is toking abt. how to do report sia.

woo. guess what is this.. haha.. taken from the back of lester's pants. taken by adrian..

Coordination of 2 reatards

Lester: MuZ tuck in till neat neat.

the 2 retards: lester and adrian.

Went back to the wake. prayers again. hmmm. i miss the venerables from fo guang shan lar. haish.. the venerables conducting the prayers for my ah ma hor, like.. weird weird de lei. not formal at all lor. haish. sit so restlessly, den.. all 3 chant at diff speed. den.. got one stil can wipe his sweat and drink ice lemon tea. what is tt sia.. last night le, so we all staying there lor. hmm.daddy kept saying, go talk to ah ma, tonight last night le. next time cannt see le.. hmmm.
Mummy's friends came. 2 tables, den.. mi and my sister help lor. i go talk to the aunties staying at my area de. hmm. Daddy's friends came again. hmmm. uncle roger and his wife came too. hmm. lotsa ppl lar. hmm. oh ya, tt day my sister's friends came too. i always say they childish lar. but seems like. they still stood by my sis. and realized that. mayhao look like liu hong mei. lolx. edward called.. and chatted for a while. hmmm. thanks thanks.

My little cousin. cute ar. but super naughty

Saturday

i hang on. till 4. msging andre too...cos he haven slp. gaming. at least got ppl chat with mi ot so wuliaoZ. hmmm. 4 plus, go lie on the mat. and.. tried to slp. woke up at 6 like tt. hmm... kept hearin my ah mu( my dad's bro's wife) talk talk talk. her children hor. 4 girls. 2 older den mi.2 younger. nv talk to us de lar. they are tall. and.. ok lar, quite pretty. den kept showing tt haughty face. hmmm. they nv talk to anione lar. hmmm. den.. at 11 like tt. got some "performance.".. veri noisy lar. clang clang clang.. my shu shu's company sponsor 2 SBS transit bus for us. den was prayers again. till 1. den.. we sent our grandma off on her last journey. haven start den i crying le. felt so bad, cos..i started crying and everyone else cried. cos.. the ritual everyone is by the buddhism wae. I always erm my grandma telling me that.."u all so gd, can read, educated can chant prayers.." she got bad eyesight, cannt read. den.. she onli can chant amituofo.. den.. she used to sit there and chant for hours. and she like.. give the merits to all her children. tt is how great mother love is. for now, i din rem the period of time tt she sick. i onli rem veri clearly the period of time tt she live same block as me. the tings she said to me. the times my mummy brought her to fo guang yuan for prayers. hmmm. i stopped crying, fought so hard with the tears.as we walked on the road. i din cry.. till we went up the bus. my small cousin,kailin kept crying.. i want ah ma back, i want to hold on to her hand.. i want ah ma to look after me. hmm. cos she small small is my ah ma look after her de mah. den.. everyone on the bus cried til.. =x. perhaps.. this was the 1st time i saw big men crying. my shu shu and ah peh all cry lei. except my daddy and the eldest son. hmmm. den was burial. i finally understand the meaning of ru tu wei an. hmmm. oh ya, daddy's friends came to send my grandma too. and my 3rd ah peh de 18 sworn brothers.

everyting ended.

last day. hmm. my little cousins.

what andre said was true. death comes to all. what's important is that. the person still lives in our hearts.

thanks ppl hu stood by me. hmmm.realli thank you.

YYY

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